Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your hear and do not lean on your own understanding; In all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

I chose this verse for the oil that I use every day because this verse has helped me many times. The first time it helped me is when my Dad was diagnosed with cancer. That was one of the darkest times of my life and I hate to admit this but I was even angry with God when he kept getting sicker even though we were all praying. I still dont know why he was taken so early but I do know that God is the only way I didn't compleley fall apart. When Evie was diagnosed I consumed myself with research and was so sad that she was having issues with her eye. I was not being still and listening to God as I should and for almost 2 years I exhausted myself by reading case studies and crying on a daily basis. God had already led her to the right doctor but I was relying on my own research and my own understaning so I took her to 2 other doctors. The first doctor we went to was Dr. Herce and that was all God. I had actually called to schedule with a different doctor and they had told me he would soon retire so if I throught she needed long term care of surgery she should see a different doctor, and then is when she was scheduled with Dr. Herce. I kept praying for God to heal her and I didn't realize he was trying to heal her through Dr. Herce's hands. After waiting to see if she would heal on her own I realized we would have to go through with the surgery. I fasted for 3 days and prayed so God would speak to me. I made the decision to take her back to Texas Childrens were she had her first appointment and Dr. Herce did say she would need surgery. These sugeries are usually scheduled out a few months or more due to the doctor's schedule being full but she had the nurse check and she had an openng in a week. God knew it needed to be fast or I might back out if I had anymore time. When we took her for her pre op the nurse opened the door, smiled and said Hi my name is Janice. My Mom's name is Janice. When we got to the back the nurse told me that Dr. Herce is amazing and if one of her children were having surgery she would want it to be her. God was so amazing and I knew it was time and this was what we were suppose to do. I had an unimangaeable peace for that week. Peace I hadn't felt in a long time. Evies surgery went perfect and I am so thankful that I finally gave up trying to figure it out on my own and I surrendered it to God. I look Evie now and I am just in awe and so thankful. She is one tough little girl and not being able to see straight never slowed her down!